DEAR QUEEN,
Even though you said that you didn't want a response,
and that I should just enjoy this, you should know me
well enough by now to know that i'm going to use this
opportunity to appreciate your presence in my life.
(p.s the upgrade to arya 1 is deeply cherished)

I think the last time we actually had a conversation like
this was on this one vc about a year back on how i was one
of your finger friends which is crazy to think about.

I often hold back even know to verbally express how i feel
about you, not because it would be awkward but because my
love for you is so deep it HAS to remain unsaid, as words could
never express how much you have come to mean to me in my life.
Hell, friend isnt even the right word, you're like a second
consience in my head.

I remember the first conversation we'd had on discord and how
i desperately wanted to be your friend, or perhaps something even
more (your ego getting hella stroked) but I am so glad that our
friendship unfolded and evolved the way it did too because that is what
helped me learn A LOT about who i was and who i wanted to be.

I think the one thing that sets you apart from current friends and the ones
i have had is you actually bring out the best in me. I know you know
that and that i have mentioned it before but my life has been driving
up north since the moment our friendship deepened
(aka got over VED DESHPANDE PHASE)

But it's not only your presence, your incessant rambling
about how i just had to let go & the back to back late night calls
that impacted my life in the best way, it is also your absence.
No matter how, for a lack of a better word, stupid it sounds, i was
so afraid of loosing you after you moved away. However in your absence
i have built some great relationships, which i have realised can be
credited to the hope your friendship has provided me.

I would go as far as to say that you are the first friend i ever conciously made.

All the time we've spent together, good or bad, has resulted in some of the
best moments of my life. I am so glad to know you skaytacium and I'm happy
to know that I'm one of your top parasocials.

Shout out to pooji & prakash and also all the friends i'm leaching off of you currently
I love you queen